Broke.

I practically have 2 maxed out credit cards and $21 in my bank account, go me! I figured I would be done with my training for my new job by now and be out in the field making money! Getting my life & health license is taking way longer than I thought it would! I'm not even sure I'm taking all the right steps to do it, but I know for a fact I'll be training AGAIN all next week because an application I had to fill out last night takes 5 business days to process, fuck!! I AM SO BROKE. And my roots look like shit, I need to see my stylist.

I've been staying at my moms a lot due to training for work, we have cocktails after work everyday. Needless to say my calorie intake hasn't been ideal. I don't eat much for breakfast, don't eat lunch because we are too busy, and then for dinner we kind of eat whatever the fuck we want. So not really been able to count calories, nor have I really cared to. My mom is obsessed with me losing weight, its so annoying. You know when your parents try to make you do something and it makes you want to do the complete opposite? (rebel instinct) Yeah well so now I'm like fuck you, I am ok with my body. I'm not of course, but I just get annoyed with how often she talks about my weight! I wish I could just be like I'm happy the way I am, get over it!! If she knew how I lost all the weight before she probably wouldn't even care, she'd rather me starve myself (hate myself), throw everything up, and be a total wreck, because being skinny is more important to her.

I need to go do my taxes. If I can ever figure out how!