Putting some things into action

So I am halfway through my insurance class. I'm not really sure what to think about it, I just pray I pass the test. I had to schedule the tests like 2 weeks after the class because both locations were completely booked! That's making me extra nervous. I really hope I like doing this, I feel motivated about it, but I feel nervous about it too. I mean I have never thought I was much of a people person, I have just never been one of those people that are easy to talk to or talk to people easily. I am really motivated to do good in this career though, I will bust my ass. I will prove everyone wrong that I can't make it.

I have been lying about my food intake to everyone:( I am staying with my mom during this class and well I didn't bring all my healthy foods, so on our hour lunch break during class I go eat whatever the fuck I want for lunch. Yesterday was zaxbys and today was chinese (yuck, never again). My breakfast and dinner has been small and healthy though.. I just can't stop eating. I want to be thin, I know people will take me more serious when it comes to sell them life or health insurance, and it will make me look more mature. I just look like a chubby young kid when I'm fat. My self-esteem is shit too when I'm fat, which will put a damper on my sells. I seriously need to bust my ass next week when I get back home in my own territory.

So much stress going on with money, food, school, passing exams, work. Ahhhhh!